a prayerful prosperity plan

it is the new tax year and \i have some goals
1.write a letter to Shirley Hughes who i would like to talk to and draw in London
as i got frustrated by the weather at Christmas I want a second trip and it would be wonderful to meet this successful artist and draw London as I had hoped.
2.A haircut today at 2.45
3.MOT on Thursday at 9 a.m if needs be i will seek to afford a new car
4.I have the tax return profit statement to do for 2012/13
5. The last assignment for the prosperous heart book is that i should make a prosperity plan
6.noting that I still have not accomplished assignment 8 of my children's writing course I have this in mind
7.Music again i would like to recommit to playing piano and yes it would be good to do grade 1
8.Studying and reading and reflecting upon Tove Janssonn
9.Finishing things the trompel'eiol and other works around my lounge.
10.Sculpture oils and story boards.I feel close to Tove.i was born on an island.I long to write picture books.her father was a sculptor.we both have a need to paint and travel and write.

I have set out my oil paints for the first time in years

So then a panel from my trompe l'oeil sits on the easel.
I have not painted in oils for years.An yet it is the most
plasticene and affectionate use of light offering all kinds of
illusions,allusions and affection caresses of life projected
and remembered.

today I hope to get the text from the powerpoint
and narrate it onto the youtube clip I seek to make
and link for the friends who are playing the charactors
in the stone soup tale on sunday


I am typing my morning pages today,because it feels
and seems and is more sociable.the hot water is on for my dishes.
I was so pleased with Michael palin and his diary keeping
and love of life and visiting old friends that I think I will do
 my best to let these become my own core values.


Romantcally I love the searle and Francois and Chagall
 model of drawing and wrttine journal although here
 I am projecting onto them.I wish to imute to them that as
 they drew they also wrote.I have I feel seen evidence of this.
I know that Chagall wrote a biogrphy and have read articles by Searle.

Frederick franck is to my mind the one who has given me the notion
 of an illustrative journalist and there is something about the Tintin
 reporter that speaks of herge's real talent and Tove jansonn's
projections are peronal diary entries too,Dylan celarly inspired by
Woody does the same >and ther is plenty evidence of both
 his and joni Mitchell's drawings and lyrices relating to each other loosely.


I see that Steve and I step aside and confront Sunnets with different attitudes.
They should represent sout sea islands and freedom.Yet if I do not have the south sea island they are like a shop window or a holiday brochure teasing me with a flashy ad at the end of the day and questioning why I have.nt the bank balance to take meself oss the where the sun is moving on to shine.Why in stead of wathing thte sunset can I not just go follow it.The horizon belong to the gypsy in me,I pompously ponder being an artist if i cannot see the loveliness where i am instead of being pulled off track by that star.it is Christ's star not horoscopes and flashy page three that garishishly calls to my own heart.so you can see the equivalent i look at the crass lack of subtlely that burns your eyes out..



heho the devil likes me angry but god says enjoy the flowers I gave you.The fruit in the basket beside you the piano before you.If you are going to chase dreams jimmy then do it with my help and somedaytime sunsets of that heart of your.Why rename you itf you do not embrace and listen to your heartist leanings and meanings .it is a prayer afet all.Put Christ's heart first.be compassionate towards Steve never patronising .he sees fro the eyes i gave him and you see through the eyes i gave you.Did I learn nothing from frederick franck they ill be able to draw like themselves...you and fredrick draw the way God shos you. Amen

panning for GOLD

Woke early.What do Michael Palin, Miranda Hart, Enid Blyton and Herge have in common?well they are all heroes.My heroes.Claske franck died on my son's birthday and she had apparently had a stroke a couple of months ago.Probably at the same time as my brother.Though my brother is younger by 20 or so years, the vulnerability and reverence for life that kicked me in the heart has to wake me up to sharing and removing barriers.The facebook page has to remain public and I must become more circumspect on behalf of others when writing there,but not to share is to remove whatever point God was making when He caused it to be created.Like the Roman Roads and the willfulnessof Henry the Eighth monster that he was ,we must allow changes to rigid barriers to God and neighbour to be removed. So then sieving for GOLD.On the cover of Deliverence by Jimmy Rae we see a man I think panning for Gold.And two very significant locations relating to my son recently have been River Cottage and The Lock Keeper's house in Chester.Why? Well at the first was the marriage of my son and the first time we have played together as a family of musicians.Heart of Gold by Neil Young.In Chester we celebrated my son's 31st birthday.Little did I know that on 7th March 2013 my beloved -no one more meaningful in my life-Claske 'passed away'.

Pacem in Terris new York is on the Waywayanda(?) River  and I recall they had a sort of new year ritual of floating a boat and burning the ? past or some such.Sort of the opposite of sieving or is it?

Any way watching Michael Palin last night as he revisited the owner of a Dow(boat) 20 years on and realizing that this may be the last time he sees him.I thought of how Claske left a message on my answer phone last year when I was 60.Frederick did not quite make a 100 either.Any way

'the thing is.....' If you sieve your heroes ,what is it that makes them gold.In Michael's case reverence for people.He knows both how to win friends and influence people.His hero Passerpartout Jules creation from Around the World in 80 days.It was during John Haynes Life Coaching Course that i was invited to sieve my heroes.The idea is to find your 'core'(heart) values...'mining then for hearts of gold'.By looking at your heroes qualities you find your own empathies.Miranda Hart doesn't swear .Well not as a feature.And like Michael Palin I feel she reminds me of the children and ethos of Enid Blyton's creative children in books like The Naughtiest Girl in School.Thinkers,carers,creatives..watching John Gorman and singing Lily the Pink with him
..a bit like looking out from a heroes eyes.Karaoke is a way of sieving in the stream of the music.Herge too revisited his friend and collaborator a Chninese gentleman.And I just remembered bernard leach also had an oriental colleague too.Miranda has been playing a part in Call the Midwife and I think the writer of these books and director of these films should be raised high too.Heroes and t.v. gold.For each story line has had a bout three woven tales -always related and genius of compassion in their enactment.Her work on I'm Not Going Out with the equally courteous Lee Mack exemplifies this ability to be clever ,intelligent yet humble and without swearing.I am impressed.

I want to make my goals consistent with my core vales .Want to wrtie like Enid Blyton and realize charactors
with qualities and take my compassionate eyes around the world as Palin and Dr Franck did.And heh I like the way Michale speaks of Helen his wife,Frederick and Claske were companions on the journey and hopefully leanr to see the neck of the guitar and amplifiers with my son's quality observations..I want to live I want to give I've been a minoer for a heart of Gold .Its these expressions I never give that keep me searching for a heart of Gold and I am reminded by Neil Young   ..'getting old.. amen

So I am going in via morning pages so as to not have to look at the adverts when I upload.Fortunately whatever it is that has happened does not effect how my face book page appears to you.It is only on my machine.Found this when John and I looked at it on his laptop.So then today I will finish the sixth of the eight drawings for the new mugs.During the week I will work on their colour layers and seek the research I will need for the Hilbre island mug and the second Liverpool Waterfont one.I maytake a ferry ride and use the panporama aspect of my Samsung Ace.I am now into my fourth week of the prosperous heart book course and it is about CLEANING HOUSE.Interstingly illustrated by these facebook unwanted ads.Perhaps when finances permit I will get the ipad I promised myself and rid myself of this old laptop that doesn't want to do wifi although kittted up for it.it also has a sad old battery that is expensive to replace.The watchword if to remove'clutter' It is always good wehn I spring clean any time of year.The emptying brings  huge infilling of the creatice comic cosmic awesome Holy Spirit breath of life.Two big goals this year to PLAY OUT i.e write some songs and do open mike ...brave yes!  I can be and will be! and to do assignment eight which will probably be a comic strip if Izzy Pop the detective.Any way want five minutes of stillness and some piano playing and maybe a little tidying before i cath my 77 bus so ...that all folks!!!!!!!!!!.There and not one advert intrusion.I will come see what it looks like now..though as i said these ads do not appear if you go on my page.You propserous blessed ones. Less clutter more clarity =prosperity you were not even aware of perhaps?

thoughts of searle

So then to make a commitment and revise some goals and hopes and sustainings.
first i will look to the word of God I opened the Gideon's bible and chose to paddle in via Mathew after the genealogy to the virgin birth and Joseph's initial thoughts of divorce and browsed gently the magi.then my eyes alighted upon Alan Mackie's Book of Hope pages i had removed to bring with me.They are from a book by Billy Graham he had been given as a gift.he had these placed; this book and other's, on the table at church when downsizing to move into the flat.

psalm 45.6 is quoted
a scepter of righteousness
of your kingdom

The King of Kings
from birth he was recognised
Herod realized there was not room for 2 thrones
H
is enemies :

'no one ever spoke like this man!'( john7.46)
'my Lord and my God!' says 'doubting ' Thomas

and then i turn to today and the word
'catch the little foxes that spoil the vine'

perfection is no trifle says Michelangelo
when his friend could see no change in the marble after hours away
he pointed to the little nuances of muscle tone and softenings

We are asked how many marriages broke down because we failed
to attend to the little things that spoil the grapes...athletes lost competitions
through similar lack of muscle tone

the big picture yes
the bringing into focus also though

only when i am faithful in the small things will God bless me with the greater things
little foxes like resentments,habits,dishonesty...Nip them in the bud!'think better thoughts
do better actions,rehearse better ways deal with them and watch life change.amen



Prayers then for a gratitude of heart an entrusting to God a letting go and a believing


lord i pray over the geek squad and insurance money as the shp says see the bank and the bank say see the shop and three friends say its too much and yet it spoils my joy and so i pray that it would not and that whilst proactive my purpose is to find quality expression not perfect control but your blessing for you say' my burden is light'...

goals whilst here to spend time with my mentors Doctor Franck,Julia Cameron,Ronald Searle John Mayall
a writer and artist who saw and drew a writer and film maker who morning pages and artist's dates.a man who made compositions of highlighted memories to cook with the ingredient's oof his eyes and location to cook a npancake of representative flavours sweetened and seasoned by his own intentional humour and joy and a blues musician who turned diary entries into short vignettes of life drama with positive attitude and psalmist honesty


downstairs the pisture rail and upper panel of the room are painted white and the paint spills into a neat yet sumbled edge in readiness for the next layer of colour to wave from floor to picture rail.Whilst chandeliers have the candellabra feel they are more modern small lamps but appropriate to the room

The usual bowls of various creals and hot milk coffee sachets etc with jugs of juice.
Polite waiters work to script and tea is served and so is toast and a few varities of boiled and fired breakfasts. A couple of large bottomed ladies add the the levels in the room as they float like boats on a dado rail sea level to get their cereals.three hairstyles one nervous English fringe like a large eye brow hangd tufty spring like over the points at the top outside corners of her spectacle she is shy unable to hide and almost curtsey's to the door to get through unnoticed.the american lady hasn't got the surrrealistic paisley that searl might have given her,but the pattern more subdued is a small sea that fails to hide the stern of the bid black bum bum.a more tempered three layers of englishness has bacl slacks with a little pink of calf beneathe a shirt/dress of open black housecoat and black tee shirt with two rows of perals with no sag though her neck is not fat her hair is coloured red and is that simple silk pair of cuves cut at the in facing wave to hold he head onto her neck like a ball  joint...the american ladya ll one bowl of mousy invisibility.

the streets that took me to my trafalgar are a diagon alley taking me diagonally to my acute reflex past the right shoulder of penn club bright cheery face the windows are creatively christmas one has  6 or so over two windows american post boxes on posts with their fronts open on a couple into fun crhsitmas world or are one together with birds and the pub fronts are like ornate carvings painted a hundred times so as to become rooted and gnarle in their rich forst of ornateness drawing people into an imaginary world of ale n merriment and bawdy wneches ---or that is what the whisper in my eyes seek if i were honest brave and could imgine finding a sincere bride in there somewhere but no empty as an unused church is this hope except i have faith that somewhere in this eccelisates emptiness god awaits me to speak to his little boy and make a happy little artist of him one day the day the blessed holy day amen

that may be the whole of what i am able to say woke up tired and long to find a way in to the drawings i desire to see arise form simply being here with my heart and my god and dostoyevsky.\back to the traflage square dream world then ....\mrylebone station is needed on sunday how to get there?

within a God altered moment everything will change

prompted by an opportunity
i sometimes find myself
in exactly the right place
at an unpremeditated time
e.g. calling at john gorman's cottege
and hearing sue bordman
say yes but you need quiet time
and finding john had wood and idea and money
imminently ready for a project he mentioned in summer
i had called on route to draw hoylake
and after dropping of illustration work
at what felt like an appointed time
something similar happened when i visited
Robin and  hsis wife when they were just about to move.


gentility

to listen out sense the touch of
God in a change of momentary direction
to have interruptible thoughts.

not knowing
unknowing
reorientation
possibility moments with Love life and blessing

i look a bit like alan whicker
and it is because of a spontanaeous yes to
 change when selecting my glasses and also responding
to stephen vicary's movember moustache idea

instead of biting the apple of cleverness
enjoy the seeds of change at the core of God's loving provision instead
you do not know where you are but He does!

people need to be maintained told they are loved-do it!

okay here goes
i've got more than a feeling
and it comes with good reason
we feel better to suspend disbelief
we do it so kindly
almost complete 'other' mind-ly
when a film on the telly it shows

as story we enter
and slip on the character mentally of the person
before us
we step into the story
not ours
yet for a couple of hours we 'believe
and we are relieved when
as if the whole world had read the secret
and knew it all turns out right because we knew it would

yet despite all the background characters in our own story lines
our own real life lines
no not the hocus pocus distractions of the
palm readers but the real living eye contact
carers reflectors of the souls travelling through our lives with us

there's an interesting interruption
unplanned 'palm' as in palm tree is the same spelling as 'palm'
as in palm leaf
i read a palm house recently
i it read
large irrigated green house in a park
it was romantic
not because it was to do with a romantic kisses and cuddles assignation

as·sig·na·tion  (sg-nshn)

n.

1. The act of assigning.

2. Something assigned, especially an allotment.

3. An appointment for a meeting between lovers; a tryst.  engagement.

No romantic because i wanted to draw it and had received a commission to paint it 

for a young wife who wanted to give it as a gift to her husband as it was the place they had wed.

And because it was the location the previous week for my friend  Ed

to commemorate his mother's life with his family.

So then two people separate story lines had come together.

If \I were a film maker

i could would might yet use the setting to

act as the theatre 

the 'o'.

And it would facilitate the suspension of other's disbelief because they would have stepped into an

unusual yet understandable legible  analogy.

Some one some group is able to erect at great expense a small cage for home for

creatures that seem inanimate yet have biblical association and whose leaves are named after our hands

and those hands are associated with our own 'family trees' or at least our projected and imagined

toyed with futures  when placed in another's interpretations.

so then the suspending of disbelief 

please notice that is a double negative 

suspend ( don't do wait)

dis( don't or undo )

belief

so then this 'leaf ' this be - lief

be leaf

 believe = suspend disbelief

viz don't not believe

allow yourself to be 'palmed- off ' with this story before you

so then there i was with my friend john ,who deserved a run out with his newspaper

and keeping me reassured in my isolation as an artistic warrior into the unkown

fellow Christian spaceman

drawing the web of glass

and remembering the other palm house the isla gladstone where at the beginning of the year God had watered dreams of a brand new life of dancing

aah well

and at the concservatory style dance room at hugh fearnlae whittinstall's place too

all quality asscociative film making stuff some mutual transparent tardissss

plural of Tardus perhap Tardi

I digress which is probably a welsh man whose slighlty angry di the aggressive

oh losing it if not already lost among the plants

so we started out flowing on the tender thought i had about the way we suspend disbelief when we step into a film yet are unable to believe when we come to our own lives having an author director origianter and making of the settings for our own story lines but willing to place or palms to be read by a part time tea leaf brewer of imaginary futures and there 'dry readings of who we are and where we are going and able to make reasonable guesstimates about where we ahave been.Well don't e know 

who do you think you are well clearly a dinosuar why not? Just look at us

When the next day i was drawing at the zoo i noticed it is collection of palm houses yet retirement homes for animals resued from the cruelty of ivory ctahers and rare meat gobblers having robbed alll there forests it only seemed right to produce thes vast palm house to let them have their own new year jive!