How can such a day as this
turn so sad?
So happy I said on facebbook that I would lap the lake twice.
I had cancelled my piano lesson as I intended to go to dentist
then work on all day with the last third of a project for a business calendar for a friend.
But it all went wrong.On route to lap the lake I thought I am running early
so I will take some cds back to the library.When I got the a small fine
no problem.But then there was a disc missing.
News satnd spoke of REM RIP.
Then a gallery phoned wanted to visit.
I put them off telling of my 'panic attack still happening-money related as
I was now visualizing and living the purchase of the
German language c.ds to prevent growing fine
Fearing Amy may have it in her player I searched but did not find
so answer phone messaged then desperately text.
I found it just as she phoned .It was in d.v.d player.
Amy phoned and I said twas found but damage now done
I was admitting to a state I did not want to be true another 'panic attack.'
Tried to alleviate with good news of two half pound weight loss
but I was furthering the picture of her dad that commenced
with dizzy spells in Barcelona.
Then the friend called and
after lengthy explanation pointed out no hadn't started the illustration work
Off to dentist.
Walked one lap of lake on way back
Stretched the paper for Barcelona image I long to commence in Dee
ran I bath.It went cold..Another call from friend one of the images needs changing
Good I haven't started
Visitors came and comllected good set of picture I pointed them to Slinkys and to Staaks
Put bath water on and started converting Chattanooga choo choo from stave to tab
for lesson at 4.45.Ran bath for too long and it ran cold.Got in anyway.
Realising I had a fasting blood test in morning
looked up how many weight watcher point in a
Frey Bentos Steak and Kidney pudding and
just the right number for me to consume by
7 p.m 14 hours before blood test
The guitar lesson went well but I had to come back
for the music I had worked on.
Phone call from a client
had forgotten to draw money to pay me
will catch me tomorrow.
How many things are going to go wrong today?
fed up I had my pudding with microwave veg.
Tried to phone the friend I would have seen today
to say I was going to bed etc.But their answer phone box was full.
So I settled down and watched a documentary on the history of the bathtub
and then did what I should have done to begin with and read the word for today.
"Its better to be alone with God
than to be surrounded by those
who will hurt you."
And the daily Bread:
"God has heard your prayers;
he has seen all you do.
Do you come with bated breath
to hear what he has to say to you?"
(As Cornelius does in Acts
when peter fearfully comes
prepared for change to speak.
"You know that we are Jews.................
but God has shown me that he
doesn't think anyone is unclean of unfit."
And the book of Hope(Billy Graham)
Searching for hope?
"in this world you will have fear and tribulation
but be of good cheer
I have overcome this world"
So from one misery guts to the rest of the world of glumblers out there:
Look at this lovely picture and ask yourselves
why has Jimmy Fleming so much sadness in him he must indeed be quite 'nuts'?!
She is called Isobel ( my mum was called 'Isabel')
I think they both mean 'She is beautiful.'
And may I cry myself to sleep for she is!