Monday, 24 September 2012

Yes to LIFE!

Let's call it life.Let's not cheapen it with'art' and 'science'.
Let's not bother with 'religiousness'.Let's breathe!
it's the blood, breath and river water of our very BEING.
It IS deep ,exciting,tear-jerking:both serious and PLAY-full.

Let's be more ALIVE to it's immensity and DELIGHT
that we are so very very small  and  the WondeR of it's endlessly

Let us learn to SPLASH!

in it
that we thrill as children

our feet take off
and we really REALLY 'fly'
oh yes''''''''''''ALIVE!'''''''''''''
to GOD's gold.

and make our mother's weep with pride
and hear them say there you are and knew you'd make it well done my love well done now come here to LOVE         ! and make y'OUr'dad happy


Saturday, 22 September 2012

Hopefulness and gratitude are clearly important issues requiring Grace

Without faith in the idea of some gifting  some receipt of kindness
then it is not possible for another to say to you
you are gifted

On the other hand
the idea that your gift is ltd is questionable
as life offer a profusion of senses and stimuli that we can

'take for granted'

what does that mean again without someone granting it giving it allowing it then

another one of those equations that ends in the decision to times by nought

i.e.    granted   or gifted  X 0= 0

the decision like the tired thought I had last night on facebook
 when in my tiredness and my feeling of loneliness
I decided with this tired mind that

'my me is broken'

well yes that is a feeling but hardly a complete picture when I do believe in Grace
I do believe i am gifted and
I do believe in a whole range of possibilities and no I am not ltd but some false man made perspective of a limiting realism when the mapped yet expanding known universe belies such a notion of limiting it to known 'probabilities' I feel whether you are scientific or faithfilled with hope and gratitude major propelling 'Gifts' in themselves that there is much to discover unvover and give birth to.I woke up and I did whilst slowly emerging from my weary bed I WOKE UP it may not be a major epiphany nor a EUREKA moment yet

I am ambition about a book I will write with nice loose penline words just two

Hope and Gratitude

and it will be based on 2012 yet only as fuel fro to date the words is to say the fuel is used up and clearly it isn't the build up of kinetic energy and dreams of this year alone is massive 'seed no bigger than a mustard seed is a scientific example of a parable' something professor Dawkins  a.very intelligent man endorses.He sees a great usefulness to parables and say amen to science and r'religion' working alongside each other for the benefit of mankind.My friend Doctor Frederick Franck spoke of the aspiration to 'become Human' and the most human of my reckoning is the man and spirit of Jesus,whose self sacrifice will and is healing the minds of those who will transcend religiousness on behalf of action and faithfilled responsibility to us turning around limiting 'worry with a relook at flowers and the birds'And say to the powerful look you are not arrayed like one of these they are better examples of peace in your deep massive genes development than your current destructive misue of science currently suggests.

So the fuel of GRATITUDE then as I look to the current year

1. My grand daughter Isobel Poppy is one year old and starting the adventure of the second year with recent visual memories of travelling in a wheel barrow full of flowers through Lyme Regis summer fresh air and happiness and stories read to her back to the bride and groom .As they had been given as gifts to her and to us all from the mutual caring to share of Robert (my son ) and Susie(my new daughter-to hell with the 'in law' bit!- (I care more than that wording)).The stories and references included such wonders as Edward Monkton  ,magnetic pulls,and re snoring terry Pratchett a wake up set of stories rather than a bedtime series.

2.The Paraolympians hallelujahhallelujahhallelujah wowsers if ever faith and science through life coaching and engineering showed and proved a spiritual dimension transcending limiting religion or po faced equations of abstract self indulgence and purposelessness  YOU ALL DID and God the world is truly grateful and therefor GRACE fILLED and GRACE -FUELLED!.

3.The OLmYPICS  the mutual fuel of a world in concert despite a shattered economy on a global scel we all proved their is fuel true CURRENCY which has meaning as that of the Isaiah 55 poetry

“Come, all you who are thirsty,
    come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
    come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
    without money and without cost.
Why spend money on what is not bread,
    and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
    and you will delight in the richest of fare.
Give ear and come to me;
    listen, that you may live.
I will make an everlasting covenant with you,
    my faithful love promised to David.
See, I have made him a witness to the peoples,
    a ruler and commander of the peoples.
Surely you will summon nations you know not,
    and nations you do not know will come running to you,
because of the Lord your God,
    the Holy One of Israel,
    for he has endowed you with splendor.”
Seek the Lord while he may be found;
    call on him while he is near.
Let the wicked forsake their ways
    and the unrighteous their thoughts.
Let them turn to the Lord, and he will have mercy on them,
    and to our God, for he will freely pardon.
“For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
    neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the Lord.
“As the heavens are higher than the earth,
    so are my ways higher than your ways
    and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
    come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
    without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
    so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
    It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
    and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
12 You will go out in joy
    and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
    will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
    will clap their hands.
13 Instead of the thornbush will grow the juniper,
    and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the Lord’s renown,
    for an everlasting sign,
    that will endure forever.”

3.The Giant Girl Titanic celebrations commiseration in Liverpool with so many peole willing to be the fuel for these giant puppets wowsers 
I was in my element having created a puppets and proverbs assignment at Southport that they exemplified to my hearts very spiritual aspirational CORE Ceour COOOOOrrrrrrRRRR!

4My son's wedding
5.My 60th Birthday

I could say a lot more  but I do not want to burn up all the fuel at once!

6.I have work coming in that I enjoy and I want to build up any broken me there is and i want to coordinate the rebuilding ofcommunitees through these doodles that I do the BUGZ for LE BIZ by LE JIMthe artist and the wallls of the URC at UPTON ON CHESTER which is the challenge and needs to be the triumph and culmination of a greater many skills and fondnesses amen.I love Chester and the Zoo and communitees .I wrote articles for Cheshire life and long to absorb the village and infer all its aroma of sweet humanity and God's planting amen.So then boots on and bowl of porridge then.A walk around the lake.Then 77 bus to Heswall and work on the Hoylake,Hilbre and Red rocks beech images for this community I am so blessed by .My children played here on the beach and froma traffic island I once wrote a love letter that CHeshire Life published oh that they would once again realise they are missing a trick not asking me to do so for them with pay! Their loss!

Thursday, 20 September 2012

and there's more

I have walked a long way around today forest beach road etc.
was so glad to find when I got to Meols that the tide was not so
 far in as to cause me to paddle.i haven't drawn todaay but I have created a lot of research material as well as collecting bits n pieces for this excercise based 'morning pages' I have some conkers and there wombs and i had a lovelu sea holly flower which was much
admired at seagrass studios as I phtogrpahed the portraait house and the station i found some old photos of west kirby in a charity shop and so i have stimulated my hope and dreams and restocked the pond today.

so this first day of izzy new year sees a busy grandad.tonight i will go to the light for jimmy nd th charity gig

i saw a book sitting on the desktop i bought in nottingham in a design place along with a moomin book and it haas a lovely cover and say 'my first novel'and reminds me of my intetnion to write children's books the reason for this net booka dn this underused blog site.Still persistence and gentle endeavours.In the background is the plaintive voice of the lead singer of elbow wonder what his name is?never heard this rtack before it has melancholic cello or violin.i just had two pieces of white toast and my favourite chai latte.
So then the idea behind morning pages is to squeeze my lemoneness for all its juice so i can find my inner flemonade.i can do this by reaching for things to say..I purchased two delicious figs and ate them whole for 48 p.I like it here in Toast young owner and lots of light like a mini southport to saving me going so farr.

John  \Hutchinson ahas emailed to say he has finished with the whale book and dave lewis is making an ebook from it.

my plan for this evening is three fold have a meal in Dee go to st.bridgets and phtot th hogbackstone and then go to the lightt .will call on john to pick up the wale book.i think th young owner her is called dave but am not sure.fondest memory here is playing harmonica with jimmy rae when we were joinde by wrechless elbow harmonica and violin playing th melody togetyher e=was fab to my ears ace.

A lady is chatting to her older friend and i have been surprised to look up twice and realise she is a mature womean as the things she says and the high giggly voice sound like someone about 12-not meant as a criticism just the reality of sound disagreeing with vision.

The day looked like rain afew times so \i am prompted to feel gratefula t the harvest of images.yes i prefer to draw from life especially loosely with a stick but nevermind i am finding i can elscticate the stiff little boxed in edges of the buildings in a front of me two older ladies discuss newspapers for there stars and their admittance of stale news..An update keeps starting up on screen wehn \i am not looking.

so hthen olde quality habits are reappearing in my life

being out in a cafe writing and morning pages of julia cameron
goal setting of life coaching
letter wrting
the main two i want to see my self do are

wtriting course
piano lessons and practice
song writing too.

Oh well i want to go get the book for Jhn and head to church then back to dee hotel for a meal so off I go that it for today -well for now anyway.

Summoning up resolve.

It is Isobel's first birthday and I would that I had posted -snail mail something  a few days ago.I have a picture being framed and have painted an image of the wheel barrow full of flowers,that will make a lovely card so first thing print it and post it.My walk for I have decided to eat porridge,brush my teeth,go for a walk and play Elbow through c.d player.My walk has an itinerary.So post card,go up the hill and through the land near Ben's mum n dad's house,take camera and paper and come donw aroun lake to photgraph first the lake people styl image then the beach scen view of Hoylake and walk therefore along front then beach to Houlake roundabout to draw the third mug shot of portrait house and Hoylake station.this is for research for the three images I want to work on for le Bizz whislt in Dee Frdiay Saturday and Monday.Friday evening is two exhibitions Dee and Wirral Society.i.e to take in Ian's work and then my own framed and the fresh work of others at the show.Tonight I also recall to go to the Light Cinema at New Brighton for Autisitic Society music charity gig of Jimmy Rae.Back to today then I want to carry on these morning pages at Toast and do not want the walk computer work etc to take me beoyong say 2.30 as I like to relax and be in the soaf window with draw journal and netbook.I amy eat in Dee Hotel this evening.On Monday evening is Matty's guitar lesson and will keep him in mind .I have an idea to go to URC Chester on Sunday and am jsut this minute thinking of inviting John..

So then my goals for today with prayer

1.Print Izzy card
2.Post it
3.Continue to walk:hill then Caldy forest
                                  Water front photo Lake People
                                                        Hoylake Portrait and station as one
                       walk back along Meole drive or via back footpath
                                     perhaps phtograph golf course

4.Go straight back out to  Toast and carry on praying with morning pages and netbook
take what is so amazing about grace morning pages and yes the long earth book.Eat in Dee Hotel then
Buys some fruit from Colin Lunts.

5 Go to New Brighton with an open mind -harmonicas? drawing book.
Quite a lot that

6.Pre Dee tomorrow print our and prepare paper and materials to do images from.
Take car tomorrow via George as 2nd walk with him hopefully with a little Dylan moment on dvd [player

Monday, 17 September 2012

2012 Our Jubilee year amen

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I haven't done mu morning pages in a while perhaps I will plug in the net book and go somewhere to day Toast say.Hopefully you have been sharing all the joy of jubilee and olupics and my son'e marriage the murals at Brookdale ,URC West Kirby,and St Savior's and my fab 6th birthday party at Dee Fine Arts and my preparation for the new mural at Upton on Chester.I am so thankful to God for Izzy Pop my son'e family his repair to all the hurts in my life and my hope of learning piano slowly with all the help Rosie Noteworthy,Simon Wallis and Jimmy Rae have given me and all the books i slowly reach into and seek to explore and assimilate.Please pray for me as I pray for you Isaiah 55 is the blessing I offfer you do spend time being pruned at John 15 speaks of Jesus the gardener and we as being in the vine i.e DIVINE de-vine accident or not a lovely thing just as Grace means a gift from God .There is no secular language it is all God's even the synapses we snap our willful self expression with .Be included in the love that pour through the air in your long the blood in your veins and the music in the language of our shared concert of thinks bubbles they are like champagne to be savoured but only till our thirst is quenched then it is time to share in the picking of the grapes and the treading not of wrath but of patience and faith.

jenny mentioned that people were curios about the guy who painted the Elm Howe room at Church so I ordered the new business card to help them find me.But they should also rememeber i am the product of lots of people who still are my teachers thought they may seem to have departed this earth.And ultimately the vast stream of undefinable being beyon d measure or science as we are so very small.I am a few note in a bigger saxophone of God's gentle powerful awful awe inspiring breath.To me Jan Gabarek and Miles Davies' Almost Blue are soem speaking in tongues to the embrochure of holy grace  I can only pray I point to God .The vastness of his unconditional love.Found myslef in tears adding to scripture John Broughall shared when I thougth of Jeus saying Mother this is your son, brother this is your mother as he breathed his last 'mortal' breath.A seed has to die .You will find this in Donovan's A gift from a lower to a Garden and in Nick Drake's fruit tree and in Dylan's Last Thought on Woody Guthrie ,but ultimately you will find it for and in and because of your own life. Amen