perception of self using grow model
g goals
r reality c.v. of things tried current skills training and assets to utilises enter into need to meet aspiration
o options micromovements and simplifications asset based thinking
w way forward actions to take in the direction of goals once more considered
dreams are clearly easier to keep hoping for than actions to get to them and affordability is part of a belief system
i need an expansive belief system in an expansive God because of my expansive hope for an abundant life
my goals are relatively simple but not limited by my current perception as i believe in a greater series of un folding options when i consider the scale of the universe the wonder of current advancement in technology and the playful way i find that i think
my skills or rather my accomplishments were rob amy marriage and loving affectionate relationships that did not come to the serene garden cottage and studio of harmonious marriage as i had dreamed
Amy and Robby are currently realising two of my dreams
gardening being in a band that is out there performing and becoming
speaking other languages and travelling and experiencing other cultures
I am realizing some of my dreams too
I will play bass in the altar this morning and hopefully grow in my friendships
i go dancing and have a few moves to revise and remember
i enjoy the companionship of two loving girls and i in turn love them
i am unsure if i have meaning for them and am almost scared of letting meaning rule my heart
both of them matter to me and i would pray that God would perhaps help me to be a true friend
to become better at affection and at friending at loving
when i woke i wanted to explain to robert why despite the satnav that i had not used my courage and satnav to call on them insecurity of funding in truth
my current perception of god's financing of me is mainly in kind something i note that tony treasurer of st bridget's centre does not want he wants money -unlike the sisters of jesus way he does not it seems have the same faith in prayer provision or isaiah 55 as they did in their little caravan years ago
what to do well self promotion and asking perhaps like tony for high price on my work or only contributing and refusing to lead seems to be my way and remain my way rather than deifying or i am happy to tweek sound systems and contribute to the mix
stone soup and morning pages and grow model reflect my faith at present which is one of inclusion but not of being used or unpaid
my feelings for a are sincere and stem for her stuckness and her kindness and her creative yearnings to play
with sound and materials and her enjoyment of my chatting encouraging and river of hopefulness i find myself sharing with her what arthur and i enjoyed but her being a girl makes me happy to be with as a boy i long for the girl to make me feel as god intended all adams to be amen
ak came like a bolt of lightening she has danced me and entranced me and filled me with hope and i am a little sacred of loving her yet know that i might oh help which way to turn then i hope both of them will allow me further into their hearts and they into mine as god is love and i am unloved
my hearts desire for a long time was to 'make' work the dream i had of r n
but though she had a basis in fact appears to be either fiction or based on the wrong real creature god had in mind
i am left with a desire to play piano
yes do the grades but to play loosely
i want to get back into the writing course too
izzy pop seems a great idea as does parkgate and twiggy n beaky and creative uturns may be needed on these two last as izzy pop is still seedling idea whilst the journey of parkgate an twiggy n beaky has already begun
and with bobby giving me this wonderful netbook i am nearer to my dream of travelling and wrting
yet recently i have been thinking of three earlier projects the paper mache scuptures the tromploeil of them
a
the book entitled caring for peter and the pencil journey that i stopped at the tsumani
i should like to turn these around
new ground is offereing itelf new subjects for playfulness
the rail pass gives me pendrawings of three cities in reach and also reading time on the trains again
the dancing gives me the dancers themselves the jive moves but also if i get it right stop motion animations of a couple and still sculptures of some of the dance moves
and ak kindess gives me hope of roamnce and broader fellowship with a loose group of playful minded real gentl vulnerable people- a church beyond church or to invite into worship fellowship though i await god in this and include you lord as hoped fpor reader of my blog
i said to ed one hit on the internet is enough i should have mentioned the real desire that it is your reading that is of my major heats desire
so then my goals are to
a find funds and to learn to use my satnav go see my son's garden and my grandaughter and su
b befreind a and help her to realize her creative dreams her artist child within
c to dance and if right become part of ak life and heart marry the right girl god brings
d have a band and write songs and play piano
e. travel log
f continue as a reader of painting books songs and films witha mind to plot plans and further 'christian' parable
though i suspect zen less is moreneess will remain an insight god has shared with me transcultural awareness but now pot pourri of religions but one way one flock one faith and one AUTHIR father /mother greater than these'the i am' God of undonditional love Jesus
i brief family music sharing friends
marriage / home/garden/kitchen
travelling and creative artist/musician/illustrativeauthor
books albums films concerts sharings dancings meals dances
food healthy diet sustained walking
reality lot of murals
published articles
work with musicians
bass harmonica and some songs one has over 3000 hits on youtube
cook quite well
have had three years as an artist so far with varied portfolio
as wine label cloth pattern designer muralist illustrator printmaker community artist
performed nusic live iin and outside church
have a good c.v and whilst i used to lecture in interior design printmaking art history drawing development narrative illustration visula communistaion and technical illustration i now nurture a more playful life coaching way of learning outside the classroom and am watching musicians grow from my guitar tuition and that is wonderful
i am dancing i have a piano and i have friends who are sharing insights
yes i did drop the more foramal lesons but that was because they were with the wrong tutor not the tutor fault and it was a very generous gift though we did reciporocate with mural work so i beleive we have acted approrpriately both of us just hard to be friends when there was once something more precious oh lord plase do not let this hapen again let us both find a the one you want for each of us she has a new freind/relationship and this is a good thing for me as i want to start afreshh for ever now amen
so the that is g a and r a roughly gone through so then options on actions
well i have a mural to do and the lessons in salt dough and wire figures and stop motion animation i would like to nurutre with the family i would sow a bigger vision of creativity with the st bridget centre and base it on stone soup thsy may need to pay me and get mateials and use the schools aroung her for their shared bike it five a day gardening venures and alos network with church farnm too
i want ot start something of a vision for gwitherin in a's hart mind beleife system so that she includes a lot of play and gets to play hersalf i feel that kens vision shrunk and napa was catrated but to have him reawake tad thinking and employ his networking skills fo ali woul be good and to get seteve involved as a firnd to arthur would be right o
so the then options are to keep bring ing people into feloowship with each other to get the river of concetd minds hearts misucic and playfulnes flowing so i can than join i amen
options intorduce steve to ali
sustain my dancing
do my piano playng and keep writing
way forarwd set some deadlines on izzy pop
music exam
assignment 8
2011/2012 account
make the salt douhg figues and turn around the caring for peter and the no wor journey drawings again with its little old car and do a paper version to animate amen include isal gladstone and the dance
Sunday, 8 April 2012
Saturday, 7 April 2012
similarity sharing of self
we all have a collage a self of
sticky simialrities
the cereals and the sandwiches are similar to this process of assimilation
st paul speaks of being poureds out
when you open a packet of cereals
with the jigswa of mixed sahpe and
digestible propertties they will be
made into a sort of mulch ot a paste in the bowl and in the digestive juices too
your body wull see and take from the food for thought and river of life you share with the scrpbook of the planets stuff and you will be sustained as part of it
not sewage system for there is no such thing as irt only living soil
my recent colllage is because of the suggestion from julia camerons the artists way
now including images from this pot pourri of being
a photo uploade by friend of jimmy rae
gets torn and rearranged affectionately digested into the life projected hope of new possibilities into
the river or radiating images within the recatngular plate container bowl
or in this case stretched pieve of watercolour paper so as to dry flat i use as the milk that binds its potential cellulose of self bind wall paper paste to fix the loosely torn fragments into the chord playeing of the musical arrangemtn of the panorama vision of turneresque impressionistic projection of hope like a puzzling jigsaw of musical possibilities and what is nice about the sahred river of fcebook is that you are 'scrapping' and collageing and sticking with the kindness of the word 'like' your own thread of the sewing that is you digested knindeness and affection to and who are 'you' the 'us' and 'the 'me'
we are like wonderful muesli wonderful pot pourrri
as i said monthe agao i have broken up some lavendar brushed of some seeds and leaves into what i think are woven oriental pdinng containers for steaming and what is steaming but an invitation to muse muzzled ciontempaltive in the stream of wamr water a bit like thinking and expanding the seed thoughts instead of planting we nourish our selves instead like the cooking process the question being how to release the asociation s and the semiological goodness of inteded meaning that may require some routine to reassue us of mutual care and affection
or indeed new ingrediants and more eccentric breakings out of the pod of our seed husks to bring about both new music- flavour and joy-taste
good tatse is not necessarily stale routine
mu friend went to hospital and he tried to play me a mnew tune about the experience as his last one seemed so criticial he treid and of course becasue i care he succeeded my intention to shpow i care his to show he is trying to reconsider the fresh dailiness of it all and he does havea greatful heart thank thanks the lord for each new day each new unwrapping of the present of the box of the ceral of the pouring out of the milk of food
yet
yes you guessed he spoke of the in the past the routine reassured if you wen to hospital
you enjoyed the reassuring love of things happening predicatably and this gives the child in each of us
i discern the mothered hope for experience that might make us want to go again until finally placed into a box to be opened by the ground to feed the earth
the unrpredictable none mothering of the new nursing with the randomised time of bed bath or medication
seems interutive to the already none reasuring over fragemnted unpredictable one on one but without memory of the soul related to leaves john watching seeming unloving unloveliness not schedulised and therefor in my view mechanical and montonous for the nurses but alos not controlled controllable nor rhythmic in the way that the heart the digestive sysytem and the sleep pattern 'needs' but then does it
if we cannot enter a comfort zone do we we get prodded and pushed into further adventure of sturdier sustained being acvtive alive and not inviting us to go stagnant and is not the river of life pouring through differently then gettiing us closer to even earlier history when the village kept on the move planting and harvesting and folk were seen as and when the other business allowed the business of the kitchen and the field ? i do not know
just knowi haven't seen tom recently am off to dee today to see if the clock fave matshes emough to be liked so i am payed and habve more sticky stuff to flow and feed off
the collage is the garden patch of secret possibility of prayer projected asked of god please include thes fragemtned heart desires of my window shopping and my gratitude of dancing in a big gree house palm house with sandra pretty lady girl of myu dreams bubbly and fun of playin g harmonica in a bamd though the picture should read playing boogie woogie jim showed me and writing stories for izzy pop about izzy pop oh i want money for tax insurance for wedding gift for holiday for hopeful new gift of happy novel to read amen
thankyou lord for the lovely cheese omeleette yesterday in sweetpeas that johinvited me to enjoy and shared with me and for the books people meories of this littl old garage collage of food and loy bless rose and ian and their children
thankyou for the tepid chai tea the frgranced persian lime candle and the branflakes i just ate from the plastic bowl i bought with another from a junk shop in brighton that was collaged together in rucksack and travelled to paris dieppe and barcelona too amen
and for the innocent apple and rasberry juice
i see the container for the backwards clock stereo cufflinks
that need new batteries and wondr where they currently are happpy that yesterday i found thunder on the mountains on modern life c.d as george had thought it was
sticky simialrities
the cereals and the sandwiches are similar to this process of assimilation
st paul speaks of being poureds out
when you open a packet of cereals
with the jigswa of mixed sahpe and
digestible propertties they will be
made into a sort of mulch ot a paste in the bowl and in the digestive juices too
your body wull see and take from the food for thought and river of life you share with the scrpbook of the planets stuff and you will be sustained as part of it
not sewage system for there is no such thing as irt only living soil
my recent colllage is because of the suggestion from julia camerons the artists way
now including images from this pot pourri of being
a photo uploade by friend of jimmy rae
gets torn and rearranged affectionately digested into the life projected hope of new possibilities into
the river or radiating images within the recatngular plate container bowl
or in this case stretched pieve of watercolour paper so as to dry flat i use as the milk that binds its potential cellulose of self bind wall paper paste to fix the loosely torn fragments into the chord playeing of the musical arrangemtn of the panorama vision of turneresque impressionistic projection of hope like a puzzling jigsaw of musical possibilities and what is nice about the sahred river of fcebook is that you are 'scrapping' and collageing and sticking with the kindness of the word 'like' your own thread of the sewing that is you digested knindeness and affection to and who are 'you' the 'us' and 'the 'me'
we are like wonderful muesli wonderful pot pourrri
as i said monthe agao i have broken up some lavendar brushed of some seeds and leaves into what i think are woven oriental pdinng containers for steaming and what is steaming but an invitation to muse muzzled ciontempaltive in the stream of wamr water a bit like thinking and expanding the seed thoughts instead of planting we nourish our selves instead like the cooking process the question being how to release the asociation s and the semiological goodness of inteded meaning that may require some routine to reassue us of mutual care and affection
or indeed new ingrediants and more eccentric breakings out of the pod of our seed husks to bring about both new music- flavour and joy-taste
good tatse is not necessarily stale routine
mu friend went to hospital and he tried to play me a mnew tune about the experience as his last one seemed so criticial he treid and of course becasue i care he succeeded my intention to shpow i care his to show he is trying to reconsider the fresh dailiness of it all and he does havea greatful heart thank thanks the lord for each new day each new unwrapping of the present of the box of the ceral of the pouring out of the milk of food
yet
yes you guessed he spoke of the in the past the routine reassured if you wen to hospital
you enjoyed the reassuring love of things happening predicatably and this gives the child in each of us
i discern the mothered hope for experience that might make us want to go again until finally placed into a box to be opened by the ground to feed the earth
the unrpredictable none mothering of the new nursing with the randomised time of bed bath or medication
seems interutive to the already none reasuring over fragemnted unpredictable one on one but without memory of the soul related to leaves john watching seeming unloving unloveliness not schedulised and therefor in my view mechanical and montonous for the nurses but alos not controlled controllable nor rhythmic in the way that the heart the digestive sysytem and the sleep pattern 'needs' but then does it
if we cannot enter a comfort zone do we we get prodded and pushed into further adventure of sturdier sustained being acvtive alive and not inviting us to go stagnant and is not the river of life pouring through differently then gettiing us closer to even earlier history when the village kept on the move planting and harvesting and folk were seen as and when the other business allowed the business of the kitchen and the field ? i do not know
just knowi haven't seen tom recently am off to dee today to see if the clock fave matshes emough to be liked so i am payed and habve more sticky stuff to flow and feed off
the collage is the garden patch of secret possibility of prayer projected asked of god please include thes fragemtned heart desires of my window shopping and my gratitude of dancing in a big gree house palm house with sandra pretty lady girl of myu dreams bubbly and fun of playin g harmonica in a bamd though the picture should read playing boogie woogie jim showed me and writing stories for izzy pop about izzy pop oh i want money for tax insurance for wedding gift for holiday for hopeful new gift of happy novel to read amen
thankyou lord for the lovely cheese omeleette yesterday in sweetpeas that johinvited me to enjoy and shared with me and for the books people meories of this littl old garage collage of food and loy bless rose and ian and their children
thankyou for the tepid chai tea the frgranced persian lime candle and the branflakes i just ate from the plastic bowl i bought with another from a junk shop in brighton that was collaged together in rucksack and travelled to paris dieppe and barcelona too amen
and for the innocent apple and rasberry juice
i see the container for the backwards clock stereo cufflinks
that need new batteries and wondr where they currently are happpy that yesterday i found thunder on the mountains on modern life c.d as george had thought it was
Friday, 6 April 2012
took me time
getting to the morning pages got me today
went for early morning walk after earlier morning collage
i uploaded with a title for easter
and i also found i wanted to use this spinney too made me think of Gethsemene and my own love for Robert
in the background playing is dylan's modern times album from which the track sandra danced so beautifully too
i jsut want to listen to his lyrics wonderful but i feel i must do my morning pages and in heart want to so much to thank god for and to share with my neighbour i shared with dave and alison today the contents of the planks for the memory above my favourite was quoting georges expression of dylan/hendrix famous
there must be some way out of here said the joker to the thief
there's too much confusion
i can;t get no release
business men they drank my wine
ploughmen dog my earth
none of them along the line know what any of it is worth
but the strip above is my relaease from southport college
when as i read john ortberg's if you wanna walk on water you gotta get out o d boat
whaen god hade me walk the plank of redundancy as i wasn't just going to step out like peter sadly
oh well
god this album is lovely dylan is singing the most romantic beyond the horizon very romantic
this is an album to dance to and i think this is a waltz that my mum n dad would have liked fab
i love to think of my mum n dad happy i have a picture i will look up at now of them
mmmmmm every step that you take i am walking the same says dylan
melody from many moons ago
the bells of st mary how sweetly they chime
john broughall bought me a bite to eat in sweetpea
i had a three egg omellete with salad and he had butternut squash
he had ahad a couple of days in hospital
the room of sweetpea is an old gatrage again my dad would like it in here and
i did as the booksehlves hold some of the books i used at southprot college feels like home and it feels like my place of sharing which is waht class rooms were for me oh well i am learning boogie woogie n dance
gonna have a lie down after a bite to eat and then i ma gonna dream to this album maybe sleep i have a guitar lesson to give tomorrow luchtime to matty
i have a clockface to deliver and have printed a limited edition rpint of caldy church from the origianl that was bouth from malcom cowen years ago i wonder how may pergap as may as 8?
i uploaded with a title for easter
and i also found i wanted to use this spinney too made me think of Gethsemene and my own love for Robert
i have been haunted by the thunder on the mountain track sandra and blair danced to and my prayer now is to wear the shirt i got at the concert and perhaps upload my own filming of it for i think i did at a concert
same day ian and rosie got married we will see any way i know that sandra knows the dj so perhap i learn to dance and then ask for the song and she let me spin her around with the joy oh speaking of the joy here is a lovely gift to which i have added wing today
this is funky monkey
the bells i wore for the recent churches together walk
went to a moving service and like the disciple i fell asleep several times
before singing the old wooden cross talking of which here is a new one
i jsut want to listen to his lyrics wonderful but i feel i must do my morning pages and in heart want to so much to thank god for and to share with my neighbour i shared with dave and alison today the contents of the planks for the memory above my favourite was quoting georges expression of dylan/hendrix famous
there must be some way out of here said the joker to the thief
there's too much confusion
i can;t get no release
business men they drank my wine
ploughmen dog my earth
none of them along the line know what any of it is worth
but the strip above is my relaease from southport college
when as i read john ortberg's if you wanna walk on water you gotta get out o d boat
whaen god hade me walk the plank of redundancy as i wasn't just going to step out like peter sadly
oh well
god this album is lovely dylan is singing the most romantic beyond the horizon very romantic
this is an album to dance to and i think this is a waltz that my mum n dad would have liked fab
i love to think of my mum n dad happy i have a picture i will look up at now of them
mmmmmm every step that you take i am walking the same says dylan
melody from many moons ago
the bells of st mary how sweetly they chime
john broughall bought me a bite to eat in sweetpea
i had a three egg omellete with salad and he had butternut squash
he had ahad a couple of days in hospital
the room of sweetpea is an old gatrage again my dad would like it in here and
i did as the booksehlves hold some of the books i used at southprot college feels like home and it feels like my place of sharing which is waht class rooms were for me oh well i am learning boogie woogie n dance
gonna have a lie down after a bite to eat and then i ma gonna dream to this album maybe sleep i have a guitar lesson to give tomorrow luchtime to matty
i have a clockface to deliver and have printed a limited edition rpint of caldy church from the origianl that was bouth from malcom cowen years ago i wonder how may pergap as may as 8?
Thursday, 5 April 2012
here's the thing
slightly snuffly
still praying for love
enjoying new freedom
not tied down
want in so many ways be be so
yet do not want to limit another's life with some neediness that
stops our presenting our lives fully as the creator
my our intuitition prayers minds hearts discern
we ar meant to be both in the mix
though not slaves to nine to five nor crippled by routine or anhialated in our creative joy
by some stifling regime of blind management that issues but does not see its poor limiting structures
perhaps i fear that for you st bridgets centre
what exactly are the the centre of?
a dead or living saint therefor deified
it is a privelege to serev the community and the least of one of these and like sally and roger and other loving souls well done we say to those who have gathered using city skills and prayers funding via other's employed good will and gifts and no doubt proved yourselves good worthy patient and faithful but to what i can only pray to God
i have just started to enjpoy the face of some souls in the stone soup jive dancing of
iwent to a tirade at this point and the laptop made na error whilst saving which i take to b emy Lord God editing my meanness my me ness of vehemence and i must repent iti is a sin for me to judge the in thereness of old church with the out thereness of hoped for inclusiveness that is for \\\\god not for me i am meant to be a yet to learn child of \god than a know it already
i must be patient and hope for the gentle caress of love offered rather than express a seething frustrated intellelect that th serpent hisses into my sorry tired eyes and unshared bed and hoem oh Christ this is a tring silent night and joni mitchell says then yell it
what have you in my heart and my hope that is growing some good fruit do not measure me and find me wanting water me transform and confort me and let me rest love and gently make faces for m the salt douhg i rpreared for the now canceled lesson and helpt me to fill in the tax form and may have a lttle holidy with rob or inlondon oh miracel man of the heavens help me to feed the starving milions withmy scribbling amen
in the backgound the video of jimmy rae is still uploading and i want a cup of tea alos in the backgound is a piano i want to play tax papers to start adding up the pertol record in th car to jot down oh the joy of the calculator and the micromovement of truths
and a cup of tea and the pva i am prayiing will dry flat on the clock face that bobby msitook for th watch the watch where time is palyful amen
thinking that i may actually be being read though it be an illusion i will find my glases and wirtie not in an inhibited way but with a mind to communication not just stream of thought nut stream of intended shared thought.amen
ned kelly my neighbour has lke emmanuel worn the first contact t shirt
i met him when we were both wearing the same smile t shirts lord i pray that the expereinces with hi kness his tide chasing his saxophone in mexicao his tramum ove his embrochure his longing to paly his busking in cheater streets rather like manny's big issue selling and their least of one of these blessing to myralsf will continue to bear fruit for them for you for all of creation creatively oh and let the noteworthiness of the rose i lovesbe yours as she is locked inside away from my heart and i fear her own oh how cross she would be to read that but the truth of my tired soul owns something of you perhaps i know not yet i carry on swimming in this stream of hopefulness improving the reso[onsings within the ever changing dance amen
what great record is that thunder on the mountain like ricki dont lose that number when i heard it in an old book shop in holland where i beleieve i bought an album or a frederick franck book amen
dance on car loving blair
team up with the loy spirit and show me what to do
and dawn play a tune on the kettle and the camera as you harmonise with tenderness with him
he is part of the world's team i knew the pitmen for fitipaldi and hunt and they when out driving encouraged my colleague to give it welly
i was encouraged to give it welly on an systems analysis course
i flew a small plane once
oh and flew to the isle of man as part of a window dressing team too
waht a life of phot fragements of memory but let us get back in the car let us get back in the plane let let us get back on the floor let us get back to the press let us get back in to the fellowship let us be companions at the mike stand in the room of unforgetable spiritulal joy and sharing let us take crosses to the lake and declare and let in the outwardness of god love ame
still praying for love
enjoying new freedom
not tied down
want in so many ways be be so
yet do not want to limit another's life with some neediness that
stops our presenting our lives fully as the creator
my our intuitition prayers minds hearts discern
we ar meant to be both in the mix
though not slaves to nine to five nor crippled by routine or anhialated in our creative joy
by some stifling regime of blind management that issues but does not see its poor limiting structures
perhaps i fear that for you st bridgets centre
what exactly are the the centre of?
a dead or living saint therefor deified
it is a privelege to serev the community and the least of one of these and like sally and roger and other loving souls well done we say to those who have gathered using city skills and prayers funding via other's employed good will and gifts and no doubt proved yourselves good worthy patient and faithful but to what i can only pray to God
i have just started to enjpoy the face of some souls in the stone soup jive dancing of
iwent to a tirade at this point and the laptop made na error whilst saving which i take to b emy Lord God editing my meanness my me ness of vehemence and i must repent iti is a sin for me to judge the in thereness of old church with the out thereness of hoped for inclusiveness that is for \\\\god not for me i am meant to be a yet to learn child of \god than a know it already
i must be patient and hope for the gentle caress of love offered rather than express a seething frustrated intellelect that th serpent hisses into my sorry tired eyes and unshared bed and hoem oh Christ this is a tring silent night and joni mitchell says then yell it
what have you in my heart and my hope that is growing some good fruit do not measure me and find me wanting water me transform and confort me and let me rest love and gently make faces for m the salt douhg i rpreared for the now canceled lesson and helpt me to fill in the tax form and may have a lttle holidy with rob or inlondon oh miracel man of the heavens help me to feed the starving milions withmy scribbling amen
in the backgound the video of jimmy rae is still uploading and i want a cup of tea alos in the backgound is a piano i want to play tax papers to start adding up the pertol record in th car to jot down oh the joy of the calculator and the micromovement of truths
and a cup of tea and the pva i am prayiing will dry flat on the clock face that bobby msitook for th watch the watch where time is palyful amen
thinking that i may actually be being read though it be an illusion i will find my glases and wirtie not in an inhibited way but with a mind to communication not just stream of thought nut stream of intended shared thought.amen
ned kelly my neighbour has lke emmanuel worn the first contact t shirt
i met him when we were both wearing the same smile t shirts lord i pray that the expereinces with hi kness his tide chasing his saxophone in mexicao his tramum ove his embrochure his longing to paly his busking in cheater streets rather like manny's big issue selling and their least of one of these blessing to myralsf will continue to bear fruit for them for you for all of creation creatively oh and let the noteworthiness of the rose i lovesbe yours as she is locked inside away from my heart and i fear her own oh how cross she would be to read that but the truth of my tired soul owns something of you perhaps i know not yet i carry on swimming in this stream of hopefulness improving the reso[onsings within the ever changing dance amen
what great record is that thunder on the mountain like ricki dont lose that number when i heard it in an old book shop in holland where i beleieve i bought an album or a frederick franck book amen
dance on car loving blair
team up with the loy spirit and show me what to do
and dawn play a tune on the kettle and the camera as you harmonise with tenderness with him
he is part of the world's team i knew the pitmen for fitipaldi and hunt and they when out driving encouraged my colleague to give it welly
i was encouraged to give it welly on an systems analysis course
i flew a small plane once
oh and flew to the isle of man as part of a window dressing team too
waht a life of phot fragements of memory but let us get back in the car let us get back in the plane let let us get back on the floor let us get back to the press let us get back in to the fellowship let us be companions at the mike stand in the room of unforgetable spiritulal joy and sharing let us take crosses to the lake and declare and let in the outwardness of god love ame
Wednesday, 4 April 2012
part of it all
So then here i am about to share my joy feel free to print out even frameeven give them away but it would be wrong for you to sell them that i believe the lord is saying is mine to enjoy as income to water the crop he planted in me for my sustenance amen
Now I only work for God.Then I worked for Him too but the probelem was so much compromise so much assessment and so the midwife of enabling the individauals'to unfold was bound by my continuously needint to deconsatruct the programming to make it shareable rather than claustrophobic for teaching is enablin g the flow to flow the sharing to share the mutual discovery to sow seeds of surpirse and nurtutred mutual gifting expecting different contents from all out egg heads a better omelette than than the scrambled egg of dishamony oh the hurt in the well in me that needs to cross the river and dance like david on the shores .
That is what is so great about jive when you have remembered lots of moves you can probably forget and signal in automatic pilot roughly knowing where you are heading you stop to talk to people in the betting office not to place a bet but to ask directions to somewhere better amen
oh yes you go back to the lights and turn right and head towards the park and you will see it .
and so you do like a star over a bethlehem stable lots of people dancing joyfully
oh the joy to hear thunder in the mountains i have the t shirt i filmed blaire and a kay
dancing to the whole song envious that i was holding the camera should either have been a pen or the lovely partner and the music in me amen
a whole lot more we passed the camera to dawn who has become a grandmother
on facebook we are all one family in Christ's blessing of this highway of human technological present moment sharingness dancing out our mutual thoughts just like changing dance parnters risking trying believing hoping part of the music of unity inclusivenss faithfulness and joy
on friday
good friday
good people
wil form a line of crosses to acknowledge mutual forgiveness a true church
will form near the water and the lake will sing of the sky
and we will be in prayer and share a vigil not of silent witness but of visaul and collective chattereing and we pray for fine weather too
this still dance is not really one of waiting for a dance partner these trees we hold in our hands are about to bloom
mine has as i doodled on a plank for my birthday present to myself a planks for the memory watercolour
perhaps someone else might photograph it and upload it for you we will be a collective gallery of souls
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Tuesday, 3 April 2012
including yourself
for when i look at the outer clock face with the lettering on
the background aged white not quite stained piano key
nor paper aged with tea colour
time perhaps measured not so much in coffee spoons as it addition of cream
i find that it is not perfectly one colour but subtly white then tea in unpredictable but elusive
generality on the stereo retinas of my one eye mind sight
a donkey etching is on the altar of my artist's desk
like in fact from the plate that etched the one my son has
he has the toy donkey itself
it became alan sharp's christmas card for his
watergate street gallery some years back when i was i think still an interior design printmaker drawing development art teaching visual communication narrative and technical illustration lecturer at southprot college i gave the course the core units
core must do not simply selected from a list
core values have become the first part of the gifts yet to discover course in encouragement
creativity life coaching
water gate
heart gates
flowing waterfall
need to be included to be poured out to take part in the dance be expressed
amen
so the cirular inner bull of the traget centre of the hub of the ever flowing stagnent momentarily clock face for the heart is the ticker behind this face
i am simply applying make up to that face to make it look moderatly ewell read like an old friendly book
the book
the waterfall the donkey with the cross on ots back the donkey work
the humility unnoticable ingognito least of one of these face books of endless isaih scroll my word will come down like rain and like snow it was another isaih that made me go for pryaer now let me see what did ron hilditch point to
Isaiah 41:10
New American Standard Bible (NASB)
10 ‘Do not fear, for I am with you;
Do not anxiously look about you, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you, surely I will help you,
Surely I will uphold you with My righteous right hand.’
New International Version (NIV)
Isaiah 55
Invitation to the Thirsty
1 “Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.
2 Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and you will delight in the richest of fare.
3 Give ear and come to me;
listen, that you may live.
I will make an everlasting covenant with you,
my faithful love promised to David.
4 See, I have made him a witness to the peoples,
a ruler and commander of the peoples.
5 Surely you will summon nations you know not,
and nations you do not know will come running to you,
because of the LORD your God,
the Holy One of Israel,
for he has endowed you with splendor.”
6 Seek the LORD while he may be found;
call on him while he is near.
7 Let the wicked forsake their ways
and the unrighteous their thoughts.
Let them turn to the LORD, and he will have mercy on them,
and to our God, for he will freely pardon.
8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the LORD.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
12 You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.
13 Instead of the thornbush will grow the juniper,
and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the LORD’s renown,
for an everlasting sign,
that will endure forever.”
Isaiah 55 (New International Version)
New International Version (NIV)
Isaiah 55
Invitation to the Thirsty
1 “Come, all you who are thirsty,
come to the waters;
and you who have no money,
come, buy and eat!
Come, buy wine and milk
without money and without cost.
2 Why spend money on what is not bread,
and your labor on what does not satisfy?
Listen, listen to me, and eat what is good,
and you will delight in the richest of fare.
3 Give ear and come to me;
listen, that you may live.
I will make an everlasting covenant with you,
my faithful love promised to David.
4 See, I have made him a witness to the peoples,
a ruler and commander of the peoples.
5 Surely you will summon nations you know not,
and nations you do not know will come running to you,
because of the LORD your God,
the Holy One of Israel,
for he has endowed you with splendor.”
6 Seek the LORD while he may be found;
call on him while he is near.
7 Let the wicked forsake their ways
and the unrighteous their thoughts.
Let them turn to the LORD, and he will have mercy on them,
and to our God, for he will freely pardon.
8 “For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,”
declares the LORD.
9 “As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
10 As the rain and the snow
come down from heaven,
and do not return to it
without watering the earth
and making it bud and flourish,
so that it yields seed for the sower and bread for the eater,
11 so is my word that goes out from my mouth:
It will not return to me empty,
but will accomplish what I desire
and achieve the purpose for which I sent it.
12 You will go out in joy
and be led forth in peace;
the mountains and hills
will burst into song before you,
and all the trees of the field
will clap their hands.
13 Instead of the thornbush will grow the juniper,
and instead of briers the myrtle will grow.
This will be for the LORD’s renown,
for an everlasting sign,
that will endure forever.”
beside me to my right are photographs
what i would like is arthur but i have what his wispy white hair and grey eyes swa from this small man with big heart who smiles form heaven in my mind's faith
i have phtos to of everyon except steve when i look upon the party when i was forty twenty years ago
they are not private but a little tired i do not want to scan not rephotos to show you john and karen layton moya whitbyamy norma pat and phil and robbybeside them a momenray collage scattered in uniform rectangle are the postcards of modigliani whose work resemble cezanne alot and rodins drawings there is the book les tre riches heaures de mrs mole
by ronald searle who i fel i knew as i knew dr franck who is in 6 phots with claske and lucas there is a paper mache puppet and then there is my framed bull very orange
oh now when i wolke i was intending therefor still am to describe in detail what i can recollect and flow together as last nights jive routine though as it feels new each time renweable like the clockface and moves in time unrepeatably the moves riffs steps are called basic and we learned to how to raide out mutual hands and whilst the lady twirls i walk quickly to catch her three spins then catch and then back the same
oh i forgot to mention on my bed lies the stencil i cut entitled curriculum vitae for the application for head of section at southport o well
the basic i will crib
i am looking through the papers in the adjacent living room for the dance moves sheet
sadly couldn't find the sheet
God wants me to trust Him in this i am learn in diferent way
i must quite simply dance
today's other gals are turn both caroline and jimmy's filmsinto discs and upload more jimmy and post both discs to them
ed just called so i will join him at cha at 11.30
hopefully both derek an john will be there
so then piano pracice and a little photo uploading onto here
Monday, 2 April 2012
wellsprings
we are all wellsprings in the shared creative thought and heart streams river of God's love
every invention cup of tea act of kindness planted garden watered kindergarden of parables pictures
gentle courteous collective shared lesson of hope is the unfolding mutual morning pages of the endeavour to be one river one flock ong God not but God.Science and art are the same thing if art labels too much or too little it narrows restricts bottle compartmentalises stagnates there are more than three primaries to make th ensuing pallette of secondaries and tertiaries harmonies colour greys tints shades tones chromas this crhomatic scale can be added to by sensitive touch time held sustained riffed synaethesia of nerve end vibrations sensations of life being life living aware and collectively enjoyed not governed controlled ridiculously divided but certainly simplified momentarily for sharin g you do not need all of the ingredients at once ot cook with build with enfold for sleep amongst do not need all the plants in one space nor in regimented ranks let the soil selecet it own seed let Love unfold in approrpriate assocaitations who decides on appropriraiteness the sharing caring concert playin music itself will help us in our shared quest the questions are only some of the splashings of possibilities the answers part of the flow of momentrainess not the syphoned off synthesised categorised named and renamed product of owners with varying scales and measures and millowners varying track of railway gauge
oh let us step in step up push away swim to shore be lifted on the possibilites of the various simultaneous similarities of timbre and gentle differences to hear the varous melodic Holy Spirit healing meoldies of the ever playing heartbeats shared the fragrant offering poured out as less self aware we enjoy our mutual self there is nothing but God in out all about everywhereness Eden gates removed melted down not for bullets and bars nor spears nor cars not for fences ofences tanks or boxes not for nails that hold our saviour pinned forever by for oxides of paint for playful constructions of visual metaphors spoons and springs and bedding nets to hammock us and some way community release keys to pick the locks of industry to bring about the purpose of the loveliness of all that can be mutually enjoyed pianos guitars instruments of tunings to find way of threee dimensions and other resonatinf through communication sound and perhaps not airoplanes not taknkers and titanic blunders the metal may be useful to the soil in someway for strnghten its mulch and perhaps ours oxides are biodegradable perhaps cutlery for eating with botle opening corkscrews of released and enjoyed momentray stores not kept for ever to be vintage but vintage already the moment to ensure is alrady manna from God's intention for us all He found his creation good and we were part of that the the point of that but an harmonious ingredietn like koal bears not susequent not consequent not chronolgical not necessarily logical nor sequential not permanenet not entierly fixed deliberat but somehow eternally present and correctly simulateously botyh necessary and wonderfilled mysteriously joyfully alive to the suchness of it all
i am in no great hurry to replicate nor publish several perhaps someone else could be so kind as to clone and publish those dieas and streams and buckets of past perforamces prints and star turns someone else to film and draw the moment rather than our being in the ever new renewing exciting love letters algebraic metaphors of myriad diverseites nunaces menadering wire drawing s in three d awareness of btoken and reconnected synatses of multidirection tony buzan mutli colour mindmap musings like the humour of edy izzrds mime in french or bible morph where he is suddenly punching a babaoon when he started by sawing wood for the ark with his dad
free indeed saith the lord in christs wit humour holy spirit endorsement of mor tha n knowledge trees variettrees in stead no that orchard of entertainers form blackpool and coast has not dispappeared but reappeared grown back stronger form the pruning the pollarding even the vivky pollarding of rebellion and fringe cuting edge or gentel assocaitve morphing refrains from arounf the horne to cordwangling grunging splods of rambling syd barret set the conrtols for the heart of we dont need no wish yu were hear seas
board surfing the world wide music al miliganesque miller n dudley jonatrhan and david wonderment of storyteling o that my mum would be forever mrs wobble as we children caught the spilling jelly with our roller sakates and nets fools for God prophecies will bring healing will birng love not a logo this christs heart fo=irst jesus you n me this our jimmy jesus in me dad said look everyone is out of step exepy out jimmy is hould have holy spirit quipped gently at the time that that is a real possibility in gods plan my freind john was told he had a head like a bottle of fog and int he lastof summer wine a character by that name prophetically is sown and this child lives in a world of his own yes God;s gift to each one of us with our shared yet unique realtionship with him and the other least of one of theses then and heoerge told by the wood work teacher with a slap on the shoulder of vehement ownership 'what ahve you done to my wood boy?' sad oh let us smile instead amen
today the to eat what God has given me to risk what i currently understand to step our in sandals of slowness to be at peace and put the dancing shoes of hope on tonight to seek to not just revise but re spatially orientate recollect and renew a flow and its signals that the none road way of movemtn through amongst with joyf ul souls should flow in gentle orchestrasted playfulneof newness of life givingness of lastin till i am say 120 ness who knows well there is the immeasurable God that she thus this nameless many naled parayed into wonderfulness jesus holy spirit river running from the core and core values of the heart of gods word living jesus holy spirit emannuel fresh every day blooming in us to discernand flow with prayerfully started with courtous car journey drawing on the road watching the other dancers from an agreed upon dance floroor of persoanl and altruistic abiding together in harmony could we not dance neared in the vilage i don't mind walking some distance perhaps to get to the church on time without the tick tocking urgency of no time to think all put the oars in simltaneously we cause our divorce with parameters that should not be there let me drift to the shore to reflect upon and scribble in silent instrument playioing doodles of broken daning wire scultures in thae paper pulp mulchof unlababeable pssibilites beyond not chrods melody lines entagnled and woven threads of mutual life giving party going joy and we all must lay on a coauch and watch feel enjoy the spinning eneries of recent outhtereness takingpart ness enjoyment and fill out the tax returns and book ourself escapades holidays papr back dreams that stared as scribble and plot plans reflecting the qualities of all we soaked up through the VERY PRAYR LIVING IS AS BOTH IMPULSE ANSWER SEED BLOSSOM AND jug o f juice amen
every invention cup of tea act of kindness planted garden watered kindergarden of parables pictures
gentle courteous collective shared lesson of hope is the unfolding mutual morning pages of the endeavour to be one river one flock ong God not but God.Science and art are the same thing if art labels too much or too little it narrows restricts bottle compartmentalises stagnates there are more than three primaries to make th ensuing pallette of secondaries and tertiaries harmonies colour greys tints shades tones chromas this crhomatic scale can be added to by sensitive touch time held sustained riffed synaethesia of nerve end vibrations sensations of life being life living aware and collectively enjoyed not governed controlled ridiculously divided but certainly simplified momentarily for sharin g you do not need all of the ingredients at once ot cook with build with enfold for sleep amongst do not need all the plants in one space nor in regimented ranks let the soil selecet it own seed let Love unfold in approrpriate assocaitations who decides on appropriraiteness the sharing caring concert playin music itself will help us in our shared quest the questions are only some of the splashings of possibilities the answers part of the flow of momentrainess not the syphoned off synthesised categorised named and renamed product of owners with varying scales and measures and millowners varying track of railway gauge
oh let us step in step up push away swim to shore be lifted on the possibilites of the various simultaneous similarities of timbre and gentle differences to hear the varous melodic Holy Spirit healing meoldies of the ever playing heartbeats shared the fragrant offering poured out as less self aware we enjoy our mutual self there is nothing but God in out all about everywhereness Eden gates removed melted down not for bullets and bars nor spears nor cars not for fences ofences tanks or boxes not for nails that hold our saviour pinned forever by for oxides of paint for playful constructions of visual metaphors spoons and springs and bedding nets to hammock us and some way community release keys to pick the locks of industry to bring about the purpose of the loveliness of all that can be mutually enjoyed pianos guitars instruments of tunings to find way of threee dimensions and other resonatinf through communication sound and perhaps not airoplanes not taknkers and titanic blunders the metal may be useful to the soil in someway for strnghten its mulch and perhaps ours oxides are biodegradable perhaps cutlery for eating with botle opening corkscrews of released and enjoyed momentray stores not kept for ever to be vintage but vintage already the moment to ensure is alrady manna from God's intention for us all He found his creation good and we were part of that the the point of that but an harmonious ingredietn like koal bears not susequent not consequent not chronolgical not necessarily logical nor sequential not permanenet not entierly fixed deliberat but somehow eternally present and correctly simulateously botyh necessary and wonderfilled mysteriously joyfully alive to the suchness of it all
i am in no great hurry to replicate nor publish several perhaps someone else could be so kind as to clone and publish those dieas and streams and buckets of past perforamces prints and star turns someone else to film and draw the moment rather than our being in the ever new renewing exciting love letters algebraic metaphors of myriad diverseites nunaces menadering wire drawing s in three d awareness of btoken and reconnected synatses of multidirection tony buzan mutli colour mindmap musings like the humour of edy izzrds mime in french or bible morph where he is suddenly punching a babaoon when he started by sawing wood for the ark with his dad
free indeed saith the lord in christs wit humour holy spirit endorsement of mor tha n knowledge trees variettrees in stead no that orchard of entertainers form blackpool and coast has not dispappeared but reappeared grown back stronger form the pruning the pollarding even the vivky pollarding of rebellion and fringe cuting edge or gentel assocaitve morphing refrains from arounf the horne to cordwangling grunging splods of rambling syd barret set the conrtols for the heart of we dont need no wish yu were hear seas
board surfing the world wide music al miliganesque miller n dudley jonatrhan and david wonderment of storyteling o that my mum would be forever mrs wobble as we children caught the spilling jelly with our roller sakates and nets fools for God prophecies will bring healing will birng love not a logo this christs heart fo=irst jesus you n me this our jimmy jesus in me dad said look everyone is out of step exepy out jimmy is hould have holy spirit quipped gently at the time that that is a real possibility in gods plan my freind john was told he had a head like a bottle of fog and int he lastof summer wine a character by that name prophetically is sown and this child lives in a world of his own yes God;s gift to each one of us with our shared yet unique realtionship with him and the other least of one of theses then and heoerge told by the wood work teacher with a slap on the shoulder of vehement ownership 'what ahve you done to my wood boy?' sad oh let us smile instead amen
today the to eat what God has given me to risk what i currently understand to step our in sandals of slowness to be at peace and put the dancing shoes of hope on tonight to seek to not just revise but re spatially orientate recollect and renew a flow and its signals that the none road way of movemtn through amongst with joyf ul souls should flow in gentle orchestrasted playfulneof newness of life givingness of lastin till i am say 120 ness who knows well there is the immeasurable God that she thus this nameless many naled parayed into wonderfulness jesus holy spirit river running from the core and core values of the heart of gods word living jesus holy spirit emannuel fresh every day blooming in us to discernand flow with prayerfully started with courtous car journey drawing on the road watching the other dancers from an agreed upon dance floroor of persoanl and altruistic abiding together in harmony could we not dance neared in the vilage i don't mind walking some distance perhaps to get to the church on time without the tick tocking urgency of no time to think all put the oars in simltaneously we cause our divorce with parameters that should not be there let me drift to the shore to reflect upon and scribble in silent instrument playioing doodles of broken daning wire scultures in thae paper pulp mulchof unlababeable pssibilites beyond not chrods melody lines entagnled and woven threads of mutual life giving party going joy and we all must lay on a coauch and watch feel enjoy the spinning eneries of recent outhtereness takingpart ness enjoyment and fill out the tax returns and book ourself escapades holidays papr back dreams that stared as scribble and plot plans reflecting the qualities of all we soaked up through the VERY PRAYR LIVING IS AS BOTH IMPULSE ANSWER SEED BLOSSOM AND jug o f juice amen
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